I've struggled with this blog for a very long time now. Why what was once a safe haven now feels like a distant stranger? The answer, I think, is simple, as they almost always are, these archived words, they're no longer who I am. They're not mine anymore.

I've always tried to make it clear that Emma Bug was really never for Emma, it was always mine and for those of you who know me, who have read these pages, you know it saved me. Infertility, paper chasing, drama, waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting. Adjustment, career-changes, illness...all here. Every gory, beautiful, insane word and world, right here.

But this blog is no longer mine, it hasn't been in quiet a while. It belongs to a Stephanie who only seems like a distant memory now. Ya'll were right, motherhood changes everything.

So this will be my last post on this journal, it's time to print its pages and tuck it away for reading some day in the future. After all, there's a hell of a story here.  

On to a new story...

 

 

Comments

[Susan]

I've been around reading your blog for a lot of those changes and I, too, have found that life changes. It's been a pleasure to know you through your keystrokes and maybe, one day, our paths will cross in real life.

[maggie]

Sorry to see you go - I have enjoyed this blog and read it thru the process of adopting my own two girls. Best wishes!

[Michelle]

Well bummer. Been lurking around since the very beginning and am sorry to see you go.

[carosgram]

Wishing you all the best - it's been a great blog and I will miss it and you.

[k2]

I'm sorry to see you go. Take care of yourselves and please let me know if you decide to return.

[Kikilia]

Big Sigh. It seems all the blogs I've enjoyed are changing or disappearing. Though I understand why-it's still sad to see them go.

I'll miss your blog.

Take care.

[Anne]

I'll miss your blog, you are a great writer. Best of luck!

[Karen]

Another long time lurker/reader stopping in to say thank you, good-bye and best wishes. I'll miss reading about you and the Bug. You have a real talent for writing. Please let me know if you ever take up the blog again. Happy trails!

Karen

[kitchu]

hope you'll let us know where the new story leads. i sure have enjoyed these pages :)

[Diana]

It's so funny how things turned out that I started reading your blog and then our girls were from the same place. Blogs like yours got me through some of the hardest times and I'm eternally grateful for others who understood and could verbalize many of my feelings. Of course, many of those feelings are different now and thank goodness there are so many more celebrations than heartaches. I will miss coming here, but I know this isn't good-bye forever :)