"And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic, will never find it."
There are times when the light is dim and the little one is tucked warm in her bed that I sometimes let my mind wander to what it would be like to live a much simpler life. To not be required to wear this or that for a job or covet silly, unnecessary things that are really only...things. Things that stack up around you and require you to dust them, that weigh you down like a water logged blanket, that emanate that internal buzzing noise so you're unable to think clearly, hearing only you should, you must, you need to.
I want to want less, need less, to simply be. Exist quietly. To wake in the morning and throw open shutters to cool breezes, to grow food, hang laundry in bright sunshine, maybe have a chicken or two, bake bread. Even I'm surprised to hear myself say those words.
I feel bogged down in my should, must, need to's lately. I have a nagging feeling it's all unnecessary and all those time suckers and clogging things are really my weight, my anchor, my self burden brought to the forefront because somewhere I felt....I felt it was necessary or even, mistakenly, needed.
I will promise myself once again, one more time, that a simpler life, a quiet life filled with the beauty and chaos of a twirling, growing girl, of a husband who has stood by me since childhood. Forget the coffee makers and furniture and clothes and things. I will make more soap, open the windows more, breath deeply and try to find magic.